I came to Tropical Oasis on December 18th, 2010 not knowing who I was. Sure, I knew my name, where I was from, where I worked and lived; but I didn’t know the real me.

I had been masking the real me from myself and the world through my addiction to alcohol for many years. Like a chameleon, I absorbed the interests of others and became what they wanted me to be as I didn’t know what it was I was interested in.

Unrealistic fears of failure, fear of acceptance, fears of all kinds drove me to anesthetize my feelings. I didn’t know how to think things through; to distinguish between what was a valid thought and what was imagined or assumed. I didn’t know any of this until I went through the program of recovery.

The days leading to my decision to get help were some of the darkest, loneliest days of my life.

I did not have a clue how things got to be that way. I had a job, friends, family that loved me. Yet, I felt totally alone, frustrated, afraid and desperate to understand what had happened to me. I needed tools to live. I needed to know how to live without drinking.

I positioned my mind, determined to soak up anything and everything I possible could to get those tools in the time I had at Tropical.

The counselor’s experience, education and tremendously caring souls spoke truth to my innermost being.

They somehow knew me.

They knew what had happened to me; they were very instrumental in unveiling the truth to becoming the person I really am.

I owe it to myself, to remain plugged in to what I was taught. Now, I can see more clearly, I understand more, I do not feel afraid and I can help others. I am useful. Without the help I received in treatment, this would not have been the case for me today.

The facility is warm, welcoming, beautiful, and serene. The fresh meals every day nourished me and were delicious.

The classes are full of information, insight, sharing and feedback. Private counseling sessions were very rewarding.

In the end, it is up to me to be willing, open and to maintain my desire to remain sober but without being taught the how’s, what’s and why’s of my addiction, I don’t believe I could.

It has been 2 ½ months since I left Tropical Oasis and my life is better. I am beginning to understand myself, I don’t walk in fear. It keeps getting better.

Thank you ALL at Tropical Oasis for the experience of a lifetime. I am forever grateful

Kari Lorenzi – Panama